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| 06. amazing things do happen, I know, but always to someone else |
[Wednesday 9th Nov @ 4:11am] |
Just spent eight hours straight reading the last book in the Inheritance series. I know most of this community of people is Harry Potter addicted, not Saphira and Eragon addicted, but I can't tell you how much tonight feels like when I spent eight hours reading Deathly Hallows, and if anyone will understand the depth of my emotions right now, it's all of you. I am bewildered, and sad, and happy, and satisfied, and above all, unsatisfied, but satisfied that I am unsatisfied. It's like watching the last movie in the Lord of the Rings series, like knowing there's a piece of cheesecake in the refrigerator but someone else having eaten it by the time you're hungry, like falling in love with someone and then abruptly falling for someone else and leaving the first bit unfinished.
I want to read it again, but at the same time I don't until I digest it all. I don't want to cry over a magician twice in one night.
It's been so long in coming. Even longer, for me, than the Deathly Hallows were, as I've been with Eragon since the very beginning, whereas I came in about halfway through Harry's adventure. I was there when the second book was conceived and released, I followed the casting for the underwhelming movie with bated breath, and I moaned with the rest of the community when Brisingr was proclaimed to be the third book of four, rather than the conclusion of my trilogy. I waited years for this night. I put aside an entire day to consume myself in a story and now I don't know how to become myself again.
Anyone else right there with me? Or am I the only one who fell in love with a boy and his dragon?
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| 05. for all of you: but specifically to manny, alexis, and especially my kenzie. |
[Wednesday 26th Oct @ 8:17pm] |
Hi, everybody.
I think it's kind of obvious that I've not been here recently. For those of you who don't know, I moved cross-country to live with my best friend in my home state and am going to college there - for those of you who do, it's going really well. Too well, honestly, and that's what this is about. I've been lying to myself about my ability to make roleplaying a priority in my life with everything else that's been going on, and that's left a lot of you hanging in regards to the lines your characters have with mine.
So this is me bowing out. I cannot say enough how much I love you or how much of my happiness I owe to you; this community is what kept me from insanity for years upon years, and especially two of you, and you know who you are. I cannot express how much I hate doing this. To be honest, Kenzie had to point it out to me that I'm not being fair to myself or to any of you by not really being here but hanging on to my characters. I can't imagine how hard that was, but probably even harder than this is.
See, I'm rambling now, but I just wanted to make it clear that this is not, in any way, a reflection on anyone or anything but myself. I'm really happy, and I'm living, and this isn't something I can make the priority it deserves to be right now. I can't make you all a priority like you all deserve to be. And I'm so sorry for that, and I will miss you so much. Hopefully, at some point I'll be able to come back and dedicate the amount of time and attention this community and these people, my people, deserve. Until then, you know where to find me - my inbox is always open.
Love always from Katie.
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| 02. drop a heart, break a name |
[Thursday 4th Aug @ 5:45pm] |
long were the nights when my days once revolved around you.
counting my footsteps, praying the floor won't fall through again.
my mother accused me of losing my mind, but I swore I was fine.
you paint me a blue sky, then go back and turn it to rain.
and I lived in your chess game, but you changed the rules every day.
wondering which version of you I might get on the phone tonight.
now I've stopped picking up, and this song is to let you know why.
dear ______,
I see it all now that you're gone.
don't you think I was too young to be messed with?
the girl in the dress cried the whole way home.
I should've known.
maybe it's me and my blind optimism to blame.
maybe it's you and your sick need to give love, then take it away.
and you'll add my name to your long list of traitors who don't understand.
and I'll look back and regret how I ignored when they said,
"run as fast as you can."
dear ______,
I see it all now that you're gone.
don't you think I was too young to be messed with?
the girl in the dress cried the whole way home.
dear ______,
I see it all now, it was wrong.
don't you think nineteen's too young to be played by your dark twisted games
when I loved you so?
I should've known.
you are an expert at sorry, and keeping lines blurry.
never impressed by me acing your tests.
all the girls that you've run dry?
have tired, lifeless eyes
cause you burned them out.
but I took your matches before fire could catch me, so don't look now.
I'm shining like fireworks over your sad, empty town.
dear ______,
I see it all now that you're gone.
don't you think I was too young to be messed with?
the girl in the dress cried the whole way home.
I see it all now that you're gone.
don't you think I was too young to be messed with?
the girl in the dress wrote you a song.
I should've known.
I should have known.
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| 01. my tribute post to the end of harry potter |
[Tuesday 19th Jul @ 10:29pm] |
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It consists of one thing: this.
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